Friday, March 27, 2015

Did you have a nap today?

Sleep.
Rest.
It’s interesting how important it is to a good defence.  As I’m currently in a state of extreme sleepiness I better understand how sleep deprevation can be used as torture.
Don’t worry: I’m no where near torture status.
But it’s interesting, n'est pas?

In Psalm 4:8 David says "In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, LORD, make me dwell in safety.“  Later in Psalm 23 he says, "He leads me by still waters...”  
Beautiful.

There’s so many great things about God: kindness, faithfulness, justice, everlasting love, and as I’ve come to discover, His gentle ways of preparing me for battle.
Have you ever noticed how much more difficult it is to make wise decisions when you’re tired or exhausted? 
No? 
Just me, I guess.

When I’m tired it’s harder for me to keep my ever-wandering mind from going down “rabbit trails” or spinning off to things that don’t need to be entertained. 
For example, before I got in the shower today I got a text from a friend.  A very simple, clear, no hidden meanings text.  I know all those things are true.  But while shampooing I couldn’t stop my mind from trying to find the hidden meaning and subtext of that simple message…oddly enough about a nap.  
I had to audibly tell myself to stop it.
And that’s just something simple.
Now take one of the lies floating around in my mind and it can be really dangerous territory.

Exhaustion, or weariness, is a passive weapon of the enemy.
I'm convinced.
A tired warrior is a weak warrior.

I believe David was very strategic about the order of his words in Psalm 23.  Notice how he first mentions lying by green pastures and still waters before walking through the darkest valley and evil. 
He knew. 
David understood the importance of being rested.

We should emphasise more about why rest is important for us, beyond being still with God (which itself is an amazing reason).   Rest is a defence mechanism God knows we’ll most likely ignore or try to “push through” when it can really serve us well.
Hello. Hence the Sabbath.

"The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath." Mark 2:27


So friends, as you go throughout this week and schedule meetings, coffee dates, workouts, etc, don't forget to block out time for rest.  you need it.  your friends need you to have it. and as far as the Bible is concerned, it's not up for discussion.



Shalom.
 

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

'Tis the [watermelon] Season!

Hello, friends!
Tidings of comfort and joy to you.

A lot has been going on pre, during, and post holiday season.  The biggest thing was my sister's visit! There's plenty to talk about my I'll highlight my favourite (now) memories:

Lex coming to visit for Christmas was so special.  We did so much while she was here; it was really fun living as a tourist.  We started things off with going up to Mt Coolum, Queensland to visit the Australia Zoo aka the Crocodile Hunter's Zoo.
A few weeks before we found this amazing family on Airbnb.  We had so much fun and felt so welcome even though we were with them less than 2 days.  From there we went to the zoo and had a blast! It was quite warm, but not unbearable.
We pet kangaroos.
We held a koala (Ellen).
Lex won an animal imitation contest.
And saw so many native Aussie animals (cassowaries, dingos, etc)


  
     

our Mt Coolum family!

















Then we came back and started living the dream in Sydney!
We went to beaches (Manly, Maroubra and Coogee) and swam in some of Australia's beautiful water.  It's still very surreal to swim in crystal clear water, but it was even better to see her experience it.  Lex doesn't normally enjoy just chilling at the beach and relaxing, but she did a great job and stuck it out for my sake :)

Then we had Christmas, which was so special.  I had to work from 11-5 so we woke up early-ish and Lex made us french toast which we ate while watching our favourite Christmas movie, Muppet Christmas Carol.  I went to work and when I came home she made us Spaghetti Bolognese for dinner while we watched some Disney Christmas short films. 
It was really special.  A Christmas day to remember for sure :) 
 
For the rest of the (too short) time, we hit the Sydney hot spots: Opera House, Harbour Bridge, Botanical Gardens, aquarium, Madame Toussaud's, etc.
 

The grand finale of the trip was a dessert night up in the 360 Bar, a rotating restaurant in the tallest building in Sydney.  We got dressed up in some new attire (her dress and my shoes) and had a really sweet time together.  We chatted about life, played some silly memory games, and reminisced over the dream we had been living the past 13 days.  She's really quite special; so smart, incredibly capable, hilariously adorable, and an all around babe.


Sissy, I know you'll read this so this bit is especially for you:
You are incredible! 
I'm convinced that if you actually realised how extraordinarily talented and gifted you are you could do anything!  There's so much more to you than just random facts, corny jokes, medical knowledge, and cute stubby toes :) 
 Don't be afraid to learn new things; teachability is one of the greatest qualities anyone can have.  Being teachable doesn't mean you're dumb, it means your wise enough to keep learning :) 
Don't waste time "warming up" to people, new and old.  Just go for it!
Your spirit is too precious to keep from others.  
Keep telling "terrible" jokes and laughing at them; your laughter invites us in to your life.  It is warm, and sometimes all it takes to draw people out is a little warmth :)
You're a great big sister and I love you.
Sincerely.




I've now commenced my final semester at Hillsong and man, is it crazy.  It's crazy to think the end is near; not quite in sight, but approaching.  God has been so kind in reaffirming His timing and has wholly-whelmed me with His peace.  I'm taking it all in.  Keeping my eyes open.  Staying focused.  Being fully present where you are is something I don't think you can ever master, but I'm doing my best.  The next season, stage, job, opportunity, move, etc will come naturally whether I'm looking for it or not so why miss where I am now?!
Plus, there's still more of Australia to see before I leave!


Sunday, October 5, 2014

twenty-six.

{written on 13.09.14 but published late...typical}

Today's activities:
  • gym
  • Paddy's
  • FaceTime chats
  • quiet time
  • Pie Tin
  • assessments
  • Dove & Olive with the flatties
  • gifts
Today has been pretty spectacular!
Starting things off at the gym with some of my favorite people doing something I love (working out), was brilliant!  I knew I would be eating a lot of food so going to the gym had dual purposes today :)
My bomb trainers Jake (left) and Chris (right)

I was able to FaceTime with two of my lovelies from home which was a nice surprise and made home feel a little less far away. 

My flatmates took today to another level: Sabrina make me my favorite, red velvet cake! When I went downstairs first thing in the morning there were massive balloons and cards.  Although our days were a little crazy, the girls made time to take Hannah (my flatmate whose birthday was the 12th) and I out to dinner at Dove & Olive, a lovely little bar/restaurant in Surry Hills.  Feeling like a normal adult and not like a college student was first-rate! I'm still surprised how nice it was to be surrounded by a "typical" scene.  I love college and I love being in that environment--I don't take it for granted.  But it's easy to forget what it's like "outside" and being reminded of what "normal" is was refreshing in a way that makes me want to change what "normal" is.
I digress.


When all 7 of us were finally home and were looking for a movie to put in the girls shouted "PRESENTS" and gave Hannah and I certificates to spas!!! 
UNBELIEVABLE, RIGHT?!
They're incredible.
College students who don't have a constant supply or surplus of money yet they find a way to dote on us! I was honestly shocked and am so honored to do life with these bodacious babes!



I am humbled by the love and kindness I've experienced today.  It's actually so special to me that I get to share my birthday with so many amazing people! I wish I could adequately express how special everyone has made me feel via text, surprise visits, Facebook, emails, cards, notes, etc.   

Sunday, August 24, 2014

3 Guys & a Tambourine.

A few weeks ago one of my favorite bands came to Sydney: Hanson.
Hanson came to Sydney.
That's right--the "MMMBop" boys.



Not only was I luckily enough to see them, but I was able to go with the coolest kids! We had the best time even before the concert started.  But then the concert started.
AND IT WAS NEXT LEVEL!!!!

The whole thing was like being in this dream.  Such a beautiful dream.
Hanson has always been good and not the synthesized, over produced kind of sound that's kept a lot of "artists" in the studio.  Hanson is the kind of good that's natural, unforced, and real.  A few songs in they put down their instruments and did an a cappella tribute (with 3 key changes!) to the Bee Gees.
Flawless.
That's the moment I was convinced it was actually a dream.





Two days after the concert and I was still on cloud 9.  As I was journalling I realized part of what made it so brilliant: I had been waiting for 14 years for this concert!  Ever since "If Only" came out in 2001 I wanted to see them.  Fourteen years of anticipation does a lot for the whole concert experience.

Long story semi-short: if you get the chance to see Hanson, do it.



My 3rd round of Pentatonix is coming up this Wednesday--that'll be fun!

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God is with me.
God is with you.
He's weeping when we weep. Laughs when we laugh.  He experiences things with us, because He's relational and loves us.
What really takes His love to the next level and why He's so trustworthy (one a thousands of reasons) is because while He's with us, weeping, rejoicing, laughing, mourning, etc., He actually sees the big picture.  God knows the reason we're going through what we're going through and cares for us enough to not rob us of the opportunity of character development.

Romans 5:3-4 (ESV)
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that 
suffering produces endurance, 
and endurance produces character, 
and character produces hope..."


I'll write something about that: suffering produces.
But for now I'm stuck on the idea of faith as another layer of skin as opposed to an article of clothing we put on when we need it.  Excited to develop that more...


Saturday, July 5, 2014

Hillsong Conference 2014

Pre-conference
Typically when people find out you're serving with Kidsong for conference there's this moment of silence and a consoling expression.  And honestly, when I saw I was allocated to Kidsong my first reaction frustration.  It's no secret that conference is going to be quite physically exhausting, but some allocations are easier than others.  Kidsong (preschoolers for 12 hours a day for 5 days) is clearly going to be full on. But you have to decide to set your own expectations;
expectations regulate experience.
So I've decided on some things I hoped for this week: 
1) keep my own expectations 
2) keep a positive attitude 
3) no saying "I'm tired."

Tuesday
I said "I'm tired" last night :(
Overall I'm feeling good and I have a great pod group!  Red pod is awesome and is made up of 3 non-college volunteers plus myself.  It's amazing to me how much fun we're having and how well we get along for a random group of people.  Such a blessing!

I knew I wouldn't make it into any of the sessions, but I got a big surprise last night when I was told to have the night off!! (We do morning and night with kids) I was able to sit in and listen to Bill Hybels talk about scheduling and how we should taylor our schedules to the people we want to be instead of only the things we want to get done.  For example, he had meetings at church most nights of the week and was missing out on a lot of family time.  He decided to change his schedule to be a great dad and would schedule home time.  He wrote "home" in his calendar so he wouldn't forget to schedule it.  And let's be honest, for most of us, if it's in our planner, we'll do it, but if it's only in our head, we'll forget.
It was nice to sit in and was definitely a new way to look at my planner.

As I was sitting in the session and of course was pitying myself for not being able to sit in more of it, the Spirit so gently reminded me that Hillsong is my church.  I get the privilege of sitting under some incredible leadership 6 out of 7 days a week, multiple times a day.  The people at conference are coming from all over and most likely aren't able to say the same thing.  Now is my time to serve at conference. If I want to attend, I can do it another season, but for now, I serve.  
It's not about me anyway, right?
Right.

Wednesday
Still feeling good.  Grateful we had an earlier night last night.  I was in bed around 8:30pm and completely knocked out.  
Still having a great time with my team and my kids.  

The whole week is going by so quickly and I'm having so much fun!

Post Conference
My feet are beyond tired.  Standing most the day, holding multiple children at the same time, and all on very little sleep is quite expending.
I've seen the first half of "Rio" at least a half dozen times.  One of my kids gave me a present!! I got a little emotional; so sweet and thoughtful.  My kids were the cutest thing.  I really had the best time with them.  So much fun!!!! Jumping in a bouncy house and having craft time is seriously the best allocation ever!!!
One highlight of my week: seeing the look on the parents' faces when they see how happy the kids are to see me and the other leaders.  
My week was full of hugs that bowled me over, laughs at silly man Dan, unique renditions of "Let it Go" and lots of hand holding.  
The experience was brilliant; a dream.


I might be physically spent and still tired, but I'm spiritually rejuvenated and pumped for what's ahead!  New things are always around the corner: new seasons, new people, new lessons, and new revelations.
Be on the look out :)

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Do you want to build a snowman?

Yep, Frozen is stuck in my head and honestly, I don't mind.
If you haven't seen the movie, see it.  Olaf cracks me up.
Anywho...


I've seen a lot of sunrises this semester, which is like watching an artist at work, but has also taught me about the importance of sleep.



My first year at HILC is almost through--I can hardly believe it!  There will be a time (and post) of wrapping up the year, but not quite yet.
We're heading into the Heart for the House and Conference season, which means we're pushing at full steam ahead!  I don't really know a time we haven't been at full steam, so it might be better to say the church is in a "surge" season.


Heart for the House is the time of year where Hillsong comes together and gives over and above their tithes.  At my home church we call it the "Thank You, Jesus" offering.  It's quite a special time in the church, but I've never really thought about the power behind it.  I regularly tithe, but have never participated in the Thank You, Jesus offering; it's not something I had a revelation about.  But this season is different.  I don't think it has to do with being at Hillsong, but more to do with the way Heart for the House has been explained to me:
Typically giving above my tithe hasn't been something I'd plan for or think on.  It was just something I'd do spur of the moment or not at all.  But the way Pastor Joel A'bell was speaking about it one service brought me to a place of understanding how investing this season can be.  (There was also a brilliant finance advisor who came into class and made the concept very clear!)  Long story short, I'm very excited and expectant over Heart for the House to see how God will stretch me and reveal to me about how to be more involved in His global mission.  Planning to be generous is kind of like taking on the best kind of dare; how much CAN I give?!
So I'm pumped for that and to see the fruit that bears.

Last week Monday I gave my first preach and I have to admit that it was pretty much awesome! I LOVED IT!! In preaching class everyone had to preach for 5 minutes and I was the 2nd to last one to go.  My tutorial mates are some of the most gifted people I've ever met and it was a privilege to see each 5 minute preach! When it was my turn, I was super pumped! I really felt like the Lord breathed a specific word in my heart for it and the more time I spent developing the idea into something feasible and practical, I could feel God affirm a lot of things.
God has given each of us special and specific gifts, but the gifting on our lives say little about us and more about His character.  I don't want to waste or limit and potential on my life, because I decide to rely on talent rather than steward the anointing on my life.  I'm comfortable with public speaking and I do believe it's one of the gifts God has given me, but I didn't want to leave the opportunity up to chance.  Am I making sense?  Basically it was a struggle to say to myself "practice your preach. don't just expect to get up there and communicate it well. By not practicing and spending time preparing, you are limiting the potential of what God wants to do."
I had been given an opportunity and I didn't want to waste it on trusting my public speaking history.  I want to trust that through diligence and good stewardship the Spirit would keep developing and molding the message into something greater than talent alone could convey.
Anyway, it went really well.  I loved it and got a lot of great feedback!  You don't do it for the feedback, of course, but it was nice to hear that I preached as effectively out loud as I did in my head :) I know I have a long way to grow, but it's very exciting to see some of my dreams actually coming to fruition!

The link below will take you to the video. 
I'm not putting it up to be showy, 
but to make it accessible to loved ones in the easiest way possible.
(Sorry about the blurriness, but I don't know how to fix it)

On a completely different note, my sister and I are hoping to participate in the 2015 Disney World Tower of Terror 10 Mile Run.  It promises to be a lot of fun, but the training process always reminds me of how strenuous new habits can be.  Trying to make running a habit isn't easy; there's always a better offer than to go on a run.  But as per usual faithfulness in one area has produced encouraging results: my mile time is decreasing and I'm running longer than before.  Apparently diligence and progress go hand-in-hand...surprise, hey?
So as I type and look out the windows and calculate the time before my run date, I'm searching my brain for excuses that won't leave me wallowing in regret. But I suppose that's what excuses always lead to, hey? Regret.  If I didn't regret something, then I wouldn't need an excuse.  So in about 2 hours I'll be on my jog through the park, most likely wondering why I didn't drink more water before I left.  It always happens. But I digress.  The point was to share my excitement that my sister initiated this adventure and the adventure I know awaits! Not to mention the health benefits and the consequences of feeling like a champion all the time! :)

Friends, let me end by speaking life into your week.
There's a lot of things waiting for you in your Monday-Friday, a lot of good and a lot of mediocre.  But choose to come at it from a good angle.  Receive everything with a light heart.  When new challenges present themselves, and they will, remember they are always paired with new opportunities.  New opportunities spawn new lessons, and as long as you're learning, you're making progress.
This week will be great!  It'll be full of promotions, new friendships, heightened passion for servanthood, and maybe even longer runs :)
Let's get ready!

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Cross = Love: my testimony.

16 days 'til Easter and Hillsong has started a church-wide effort to spread the love of Christ throughout the city.  There's something everyday from encouraging three people to writing a thank-you note.  The small pamphlet is such a brilliantly creative, yet completely practical way to show love.  Once again, the team has fully equipped us to be on mission (MISSION DEI).

Today's bit is to "share your testimony with someone" and since I didn't have the opportunity to share with someone in the city, I figured I'll use what I have (this blog) to be on mission.  After all, that's my hope for this space: that it would lead people to Jesus in small and great ways, whatever that looks like for everyone who ends up here.

As you read this, please try and read it with a smile on my face.  I say nothing out of bitterness, blame, or regret.  I love my parents and have been healed from anger and an unforgiving spirit.  Forgiveness freed me. Forgiving freed me.

With that said, here's the "short bus ride" version of my testimony:

My parents got divorced with I was about 3 or 4.  The God I "knew" was the God who took dads away, so that's the God I grew up knowing.  God didn't really factor into my life one way or the other, good or bad.  My mom became really abusive towards my sister and I, but I've always been a happy girl.  I suppose I just thought things were normal; all kids had a bit of what was my everyday, right?
Things were fine.
But when I was 13 I got in some trouble with the law (which is all the detail you get in the "short bus ride" version).  So the last resort I had was to bargain with God. You know the prayer, "God, if you get me out of here I'll never (fill in the blank) again."  And the next day I was out.  
Three things came out of that:
1. I had just met Jesus for the first time (I didn't become a Christian, I just met Him)
2. it's the first time I knew God was real
3. and maybe He wasn't such a bad guy
So from then on things went back to my normal.  When I was 16 there was another incident with my mom and my sister and I ended up moving in with our dad and his new family.
He made my sister and I go to church and youth group. 
It was awful.
No one talked to us.  My sister had a lip piercing.  I had an eyebrow piercing. And none of the kids talked to us.
It sucked.
And then of course my dad signed us up for summer camp...
When the other students realized I wasn't who they assumed me to be (and that I'm actually awesome), things got better and I made friends.  The third day of camp, Stewie (the speaker) talked about how you play different roles in your life, specifically the fool.
I knew that was exactly who I was.  I was playing the fool.
I had been hopping from group to group, from the preps to the punks, trying to fit in.
I was playing the fool. Searching for identity.
That night I fell in love with Jesus.
And from there it's been a journey.  
Not always easy, not always tough, but I've never felt lost like I was before.  
Since July 15, 2005 I have always felt identified, noticed, counted, and cared for by God.


My prayer is that in some way this encourages you and that you would know your testimony is powerful.  Every story of salvation is a rescue story; get excited about it! Don't keep good news to yourself. And don't keep The Good News to yourself.

Tomorrow's goal is to encourage 3 people.
Have a go at it :)

'til next time friends.

cross = love