Rockin' Around.

Tis the season for Christmas music (as if there isn't a time for that), frantic shopping, terrible gift wrapping, tacky sweaters, and a whole holiday heap of parties.

I LOVE THE CHRISTMAS SEASON!

Completely unimportant (but fun) things:

• just reserved the hotel for the One Direction concert in June
• after 5 years, I will be eating my first meat product on January 3rd: a delicious Chik-fil-A sandwich
• Passion 2013 starts soon
• Australia...July 12. Still in "excited" mode.

I just can't get enough Bing Crosby, Dean Martin, *NSYNC, Frankie, Michael Buble, etc, etc.  The weather has been rather warm, but it seems the wind is about to shift.

Things have gotten better with Sissy; I think she wanted to feel heard.  

Through much discord in current life I'm discovering that I'm not actually who I want to be.

Heavy, right?

Not something I would have expected to come up, but here it is...

My high school girlfriends and I are currently wading through the very rough current of built-up frustration and dishonesty: ne'er a good combination.

Honestly, I just feel attacked and betrayed. It's not that people are saying negative and hurtful things about me. It's that friends are saying hurtful and negative things behind my back.  I suppose a little bit of it is that there are bad things to say about me when I try to be kind, honest, genuine, fair, and Christ-like.  There's just a little bit more of the world in me than I would have thought or care to have. And I don't want that.

What do I want?

I want people to look at me and see the fruit of the Spirit. 

To be Christ-like in every moment. 

Speak peace, spread joy, show kindness, live in love, and to be genuine.

I start meeting with a woman next year :) to work on some underlying issues. And my small group is starting a book called "The Cure" by John Lynch which I've heard great things about.

So here's hoping 2013 is a year of progress towards the woman God created me to be and the life he has me to life.